Around in March 2013, I dreamed that I was pregnant and had the
blood show. I knew I was about to deliver my baby. With the help of some
villagers, I came in a small house of a rural village to wait for delivery. I
saw lots of blood but the baby didn’t come out, then I woke up. I went to ask
the brother G that “what does it mean to bleed a lot?” He said “it means to pay price.” After the
dream, I knew a little bit that there would be a cell group built up, however,
I didn’t keep that in mind.
This July, the sister S, the sister Y and I had a
chance to talk on the phone. The sister S said, “You may pray to God to lead
you to love Him, because we often love Him in the way the world does. We can’t
continue loving God without His leading.” I kept her words very deeply. And the
sister Y came to share her experience of prayer with me: God would wake her up
in the midnight, and she doesn’t feel sleepy at all, and then she gets up to
pray. The very next day, she feels very energetic and not exhausted at all. But
if she continues to fall into sleep, it looks like that she sleeps more than
enough but she will feel much unhappy on the next day. It would be better if
she wakes up to pray. I’ve learnt her sharing. I usually wake up in the
midnight, but I never pray and continue to sleep. Through the sharing of the
sister Y, I know that’s the calling of God. Therefore, since July, I’ve started
to wake up in the midnight or in the early morning to pray as what the sister Y
usually does.
This September, I dreamed again that I was pregnant,
but I was worried in the dream, because I didn’t know that how should I raise
this baby. I didn’t want the baby very much, because in reality I already had
two babies and I took the risk to deliver them. So when I dreamed that I was
pregnant, I thought “why am I pregnant again!?”
After I woke up, I didn’t want to lead a cell group in the reality, because that means I have to share God’s words. However I didn’t know how to become a leader to share the words of God with others. I just hoped that there would a brother or a sister whose life is good enough to lead the group and I just learned from him or her. I didn’t want to lead others. When I told my dream to the sister EC, and she said, “God doesn’t force others to do something. If you have no will in your mind, you would probably dream of that you miscarry.” What EC said made me carefully ponder on the baby. I prayed before God and changed my attitude to accept that peacefully.
It’s amazing that after few days, I dreamed myself
pregnant again. I had a big belly in my dream. I had an idea in the dream that I
don’t know how to raise this baby, however if this baby is given by God, He
will also give me strength to raise the baby.
During Oct 14 2013 to Oct 18 2013, I read the book
of Isiah. The Scripture which touches me was Isiah chapter 58 verses 10-11:
“If you spend yourselves in behalf of the hungry
and satisfy the needs of the oppressed,
then your light will rise in the darkness,
and your night will become like the noonday.
The LORD will guide you always;
he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land
and will strengthen your frame.
and satisfy the needs of the oppressed,
then your light will rise in the darkness,
and your night will become like the noonday.
The LORD will guide you always;
he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land
and will strengthen your frame.
After
reading the above Scriptures, I got a revelation in mind, which is that people
who share the words of God are those who share food to the hungry. I knew
neither friends nor relatives who are really hungry physically, but I knew some
brothers and sisters who are spiritually hungry and are not fed enough. The
most important was that through the Scriptures, I recognize the unthinkable grace
and anointing God gives to those who share His words. So I pray seriously
before God that “I am willing to become such person to accept the baby.”
It’s
so miraculous that at night I dreamed somebody touched my belly and I saw the
head of the baby come out. Then I saw a couple of hands pulling out the baby.
Two
days later, again I dreamed a sister who came across some danger, and I wanted
to stop her. I suddenly made her call me “Mom” in the dream, and then actually
called me “Mom.” Through these two dreams, I know the baby was born
spiritually.
On
Friday, Oct 18 2013, I read the Scriptures Isiah chapter 61 verses 1 to 2:
“The
Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me,
because the LORD has anointed me
to proclaim good news to the poor.
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
to proclaim freedom for the captives
and release from darkness for the prisoners,
to proclaim the year of the LORD’s favor
and the day of vengeance of our God,
to comfort all who mourn”
because the LORD has anointed me
to proclaim good news to the poor.
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
to proclaim freedom for the captives
and release from darkness for the prisoners,
to proclaim the year of the LORD’s favor
and the day of vengeance of our God,
to comfort all who mourn”
Then
I thought in my mind that it would be nice if I can receive the anointing from
God in tonight’s meeting. In the meeting, after I shared my dream of baby’s
birth, I really received God’s anointing through the sister E. Hallelujah! Praise
the LORD and thank God.
T.Q.
